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Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Jesus Christ Is My Healer (My Personal Testimony Part I)

Here is one chapter in my life that will always stay fresh in my mind. Sometimes I don’t want to think about it because it brings back a tremendous feeling in me but the Holy Spirit has been leading me to share it here in my blog. This experience in my life is a living proof that God is still the same yesterday, today and forever and miracles happen when we pray. I’m not telling this to glorify myself or anybody but to glorify the name of Jesus, my Healer.

It was September 1995 when I felt a lump in my left breast while I was taking a bath. I got worried but I can’t go to the doctor at that time because I had no money, no job and my grandmother who had been supporting us from her pension just passed away. My sister Violy was the sole bread-winner at that time and life was not that easy. I am a college graduate but it's not easy to get a job in the Philippines. I tried my best to look for one and I applied in different offices but no luck. Then after a few months of searching and applying the Lord finally answered my prayers and I landed a job in a public high school in our town on March 1996. After I got my first salary I went to see a doctor for a check up of the lump in my breast and he said I needed to have an excision for biopsy. I was so scared to go under the knife but with lots of prayers from my church, my family and my own prayers, I finally got the courage to go under the knife. My first salary just went to the doctor. To make the story short, after the biopsy, I was diagnosed of the Big C, breast cancer! I remember, I was with my aunt in the hospital when I got the biopsy result and I cried and cried. I asked God "Why me Lord? There are lots of bad people out there but why me of all people?" I said I’m still young and I’m going to die soon. To have a cancer is just like having a death sentence. My mother passed away because of breast cancer when I was 16 and I’ve witnessed how hard it was for her to suffer this disease. I prayed hard to God, at that time I was still a baby Christian but I believe that God can do miracles. I wanted an instant healing miracle like what I watched in the tv a few times but God had another plan. I just realized later that God deals with every individual differently based on their faith. 

I didn't want to have another surgery because I was so scared and I remember my sister and I used to cry at night. I told her I'm going to die like our mom, she had undergone surgery 3 times but she still died. But Violy encouraged me and with lots of prayers I agreed to undergo another surgery because I wanted to live longer. It was really so hard for me financially, my mind was bothered with my illness and I was also tortured of thinking where will I get the money needed for the surgery. My sister Violy decided to get a loan so I can have the money I needed for the surgery. Also my brother Celso just got a job and he helped me too. My neighbors who are well off were hesitant to loan me money because they thought I won't be able to pay it. This time I needed a lot of prayers again from my church and for one month I was the subject of their prayer meetings and also they came and prayed for me in our house. I needed the courage to go under the knife again. I was so nervous before I went to the operating room. My BP was high but the doctor decided to perform the operation anyway. Everything went alright after the surgery but it took some time for the wound to heal. Then I went back to work after a few days and I just took some medications which the doctor prescribed me to kill the cancer cells.

But lo and behold! After almost 2 years I had a relapse in 1998, the cancer came back and it was inflamed. This time I went to see another doctor in Baguio General Hospital. He’s an oncologist and he was the doctor of my late mom. He still remembered my mom and he said mother and daughter. I cried at that time and he recommended to me to have a chemotherapy and radiation therapy as soon as possible. I had to remedy again the money needed for the treatment. I was so depressed this time. My salary was not even enough to cover my treatment each month and I needed to have the chemo every 28 days for 6 consecutive months. I prayed to God to take care of my financial needs. I said to God that He owns the world and everything on it and I trusted Him that He will meet my needs and God has been so faithful. He provided all the money that I needed. He used other people to help me. Just after my 1st chemo my hair fell out and it really made me cry. I was so depressed because it was hard for me to lose my hair. Also I always throw-up until there was no more food in my stomach and I was worst than a pregnant woman because I didn’t even like the smell of certain foods. It made me throw-up too. My youngest brother Albin accompanied me in my treatment alternately with my aunt and my BF in Baguio each month. 

After my 2nd chemo, the worst happened. The effects of chemo and radiation therapy was worst than the cancer itself. I can’t eat and I can’t sleep for almost a week and it made me so weak. I didn’t even want to look at myself in the mirror because I saw an ugly woman whenever I look at the mirror due to the effects of the therapy. I was so thin, so dark, no hair and my fingernails were black. I was even ashamed to go out when other people came into the house. I hid in my room. I used a hat then I bought a wig from a beauty parlor to cover my bald head. That wig was ugly so I asked one of my friends who was working abroad to buy one and send it to me and she did, thank God. I almost died after my 2nd chemo. It felt like there was a heavy stone in my chest and I can’t lie down for even straight 5 minutes. When I sat down I got tired easily so I really didn't know what to do. I can't eat because my throat was sore due to my throw-ups. I knew my immune system at that time was so weak because of the chemo treatment. It killed the good and bad cells in my body. My room was upstairs and I can hardly go up there. I remember I even asked forgiveness from my father who was still alive at that time and all the members in my family because I thought I won’t live long. I really cried and I knew they had a hard time seeing me suffer. My sister and her husband took me to the hospital to have a dextrose to make me stronger but it didn't really helped a lot. Still I didn't feel any better. When everybody were all sleeping at night I was wide awake sitting down on my bed and looking at the sky talking to God and pleading my case. 

Then that memorable night happened. I was really so weak and can’t sleep for many nights already. I kneeled down beside my aunt and I cried out my heart to the Lord. I said to God that if it’s His will to take my life, then take it now because I already suffered a lot and I can't handle it no more but if it’s His will that I will live, then He will heal me. I said to God that I know that all people will die but I pleaded to Him to please extend my life so I can help my family and also His ministry. I claimed His promises in the Bible, like “I am the Lord that healeth thee" Exodus 15:26, “Ask and it shall be given”, Matthew 7:7, “Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them. Mark 11:24”, "I will never leave you nor forsake you" Hebrews 13:5, “With God nothing is impossible” Luke 1:37. While I was praying, my aunt knelt down too beside me and we both prayed and cried to the Lord to heal me for half an hour. I made a total surrender to the Lord. After that I laid down and I focused my thoughts on Jesus. I kept telling myself, Jesus loves me, Jesus loves me, then I drifted off to sleep for the first time after almost a week of not being able to sleep. When I was sleeping Satan came to disturb me because I dreamed of my mom having a lot of lumps in her body and I woke up. I rebuked Satan and commanded him to leave in Jesus’ name. I told him that greater is He who is in me (Jesus) than he who is in this world (satan). I really said it out loud. Then I went back to sleep and when I woke up in the morning I decided to go back to work. I had to fight my illness and won’t let the enemy win. From that time on I slowly gained back my strength and my healing has been slowly and surely.

Until now I’m cancer free and I'm not taking any medicine. It's been more than 12 years and I thank God I'm still alive. Jesus Christ has healed me! The Lord is really amazing! He’s the greatest physician in this world and I give Him all the glory, honor, praises and thanksgiving. He had also transformed me from glory to glory and I’m not ashamed to tell the whole world that Jesus Christ is my Healer, Provider, Comforter, Savior and Lord of my life and I belong to Him. Jesus Christ is also my coming King. This trial in my life had strengthen my faith in God and I developed a closer relationship with Him. This was really a test of faith and I am a living proof that Jesus Christ still heals today as long as you have faith. To anybody who is reading my testimony, it's my prayer that you'll be blessed and if you have any problems in your life, just go to Jesus and talk to Him through prayer. Nothing is too difficult for Him. What He has done for me, He can do it for you for He is no respecter of person. Just have faith. To God be the Glory.


Sunday, July 27, 2008

Directions To Home

Make a right onto believeth Blvd.

Keep straight and go through the green light which is Jesus Christ.

There, you must turn onto the bridge of faith, which is over troubled water

When you get off the bridge, make a Right turn and keep straight.

You are on the King's highway- Heaven Bound.

Keep going for three miles; One for the Father, One for the Son, and One for the Holy Ghost.

Then exit off onto Grace Blvd. From there make Right on Gospel Lane

Keep straight and then make another right on Prayer Road.

As you go on your way, Yield Not to the Traffic on Temptation Ave.

Also avoid Sin Street because it is a Dead End.

Pass up Envy Drive, and Hate Avenue,

Also, pass up Hypocrisy Street, Gossiping Lane, and Backbiting Blvd.

However you have to go down Long-suffering Lane, Persecution Blvd. and Trials and Tribulation Ave.

But that's alright because Victory Street is straight ahead!
AMEN!!!!!!

Life is God's gift to you........


Monday, July 21, 2008

Someone Else

We are all saddened to learn this week of the death of one of our church's most valuable members, Someone Else.

Someone's passing created a vacancy that will be difficult to be.

Else has been with us for many years, and for every one of those years, Someone did far more than a normal person's share of the work.

Whenever leadership was mentioned, this wonderful person was looked to for inspiration as well as results: Someone Else can work with that group."

Whenever there was a job to do, a class to teach, or a meeting to attend, one name was on everyone's list- Someone Else.

"Let Someone Else do it" was a common refrain heard throughout the church.

It was common knowledge that Someone Else was among the largest givers in the church. Whenever there was a financial need, everyone just assumed Someone Else would make up the difference.

Someone Else was a wonderful person, sometimes appearing superhuman; but a person can only do so much.

Were the truth known, everybody expected too much of Someone Else.

Now Someone Else is gone! We wonder what we are going to do.

Someone Else left a wonderful example to follow, but who is going to follow it?

Who is going to do the things Someone Else did?

Remember-we can't depend on Someone Else anymore!


Monday, July 14, 2008

EMERGENCY PHONE NUMBERS

When in sorrow............................call John 14
When men fail you........................call Psalm 27
When you have sinned.....................call Psalm 51
When you worry....................call Matthew 6:19-34
When you are in danger...................call Psalm 91
When God seems far away.................call Psalm 139
When your faith needs stirring.........call Hebrews 11
When you are lonely and fearful..........call Psalm 23
When you grow bitter and critical.call I Corinthians 13
When you feel down and out....... ...call Romans 8:31
When you want peace and rest.....call Matthew 11:25-30
When the world seems bigger than God.....call Psalm 90
When you want Christian assurance...call Romans 8:1-30
When you leave home for labor or travel..call Psalm 121
When your prayers grow narrow or selfish.call Psalm 67
When you want courage for a task.........call Joshua 1
When you think of investments and returns..call Mark 10
If you are depressed........... .........call Psalm 27
If your pocketbook is empty...............call Psalm 37
If you are losing confidence in people....call I Corinthians 13
If people seem unkind........ ...........call John 15
If discouraged about your work..........call Psalm 126
If self pride/greatness takes hold.......call Psalm 19
If you want to be fruitful..............call John 15
For understanding of Christianity...call II Corinthians 5:15-19
For a great invention/opportunity.......call Isaiah 55
For how to get along with fellow men.....call Romans 12
For Paul's secret to happiness..call Colossians 3:12-17


ALTERNATE NUMBERS:
For dealing with fear.................call Psalm 34:7
For security..........................call Psalm 121:3
For assurance...........................call Mark8:35
For reassurance.....................call Psalm 145:18


PLEASE NOTE: Emergency numbers may be dialed direct. No operator assistance is necessary. All lines to Heaven are open 24 hours a day! Feed your FAITH, and DOUBT will starve to death! Pass it on and on!


Friday, July 11, 2008

The Desires of Your Heart

READ | Psalm 37:1-8

You may have heard God's promise to give you "the desires of your heart." But too quick a glance at Psalm 37:4 will lead only to frustration and disappointment. To understand the scope of God's awesome promise, we must explore the conditions He placed around this passage.

First, Psalm 37:1-2 tells us not to fret about or envy "evildoers." In other words, we shouldn't be consumed with the success of unrighteous people. God will deal with them. Your responsibility is to watch your own actions.

Next, verse three instructs us to "trust in the LORD," "do good," and "cultivate faithfulness." God is interested in our maturity. He wants to be able to trust us with life's major decisions, which usually relate to our deepest desires.

In verse four, we are clearly told to "delight… in the LORD." We should seek His desires. If we truly pursue God's good pleasure, our desires will fall right into place.

Then, verse five commands us to "commit [our] way to the LORD" and trust Him. When we focus our steps on His path, we know we're heading in the right direction. God will not bless our sinful missteps. Our duty is to keep to His purposeful plan.

Finally, verse seven calls us to "rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him." Remember, God's timing is perfect. If we see no immediate response to a faithful prayer, we must trust Him enough to wait on His flawless timing.

Are you frustrated by God's response to your desires? Pray through Psalm 37:1-8. Then, ask the Lord to bring your will perfectly in line with His.


Saturday, July 5, 2008

Far From My Heavenly Home

Far from my heavenly home, Far from my Father's breast, Fainting I cry, blest Spirit come, And speed me to my rest, My spirit homeward turns And fain would thither flee, My heart, O Zion droops and yearns, When I remember thee. To thee, to thee I press, A dark and toilsome road; When shall I pass the wilderness, And reach the Saints abode? God of my life, be near On Thee my hope I cast: O guide me through the desert here, And bring me home at last.


Thursday, July 3, 2008

Moments of Weakness

READ | 2 Samuel 11:1-5

Scripture is filled with descriptions of men and women who sinned in moments of weakness. The first of these true stories is Adam and Eve. First Corinthians 10:11 says these stories are given for our instruction. God wants us to learn from the mistakes of others.

King David's idleness caused his mind to contemplate adultery with Bathsheba. Weariness led Elijah to view death as preferable to life. Genesis 3:6 indicates pride may have played a part in Eve listening to the serpent. Lust may have prompted Solomon to desire many wives, including unbelieving ones. Add to these a sense of spiritual or emotional neediness and emptiness, and we have at least six situations that are fertile ground for temptation. In some biblical examples, temptation was resisted. But in others, the individuals gave in. We can all identify.

The many different types of temptation follow a similar pattern. The eye looks, the mind desires, and the will acts. King David looked at Uriah's wife and inquired about her. Then, he acted. Joshua 7:20-21 tells the story of Achan. He helped in the Jericho conquest and noticed all the material wealth. Then, he coveted it in his mind and took what he wanted.

Regardless of the reason for vulnerability, each person is responsible for his actions. In times of weakness, don't let yourself become too Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired and this turned to the acronym "H.A.L.T.". Most importantly, fix your attention on the Lord. Draw strength from Him, and experience victory over temptation.


Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Angels

THIS STORY IS BASED FROM MY TRUE EXPERIENCE.

The question some may ask, are Angels real?

The answer is yes they do exist, I know by experience. When I was about 6 years old my father had an old footlocker in the garage. He told all of us kids to stay out. Well, I am the type of person if someone tells me not or I can"t do something I will do it or die. I went out in the garage climbed into that footlocker and the lid shut and locked with me in side. I screamed and yelled but no one could hear me. I was soon crying and so scared that I may die there inside and no one will know where I was. I was inside that footlocker, locked in for how long I don"t know but it seemed like eternity. Then the lid opened and it was just like when your mother would pick you up when you were hurt. It was that way then but no one that I could see was there. It was my gurdian angel watching over me that day, the one the good Lord had sent. From that day on I have believed in angels. I think some time, some of them UFO spotting are angel activity moving about watching. That is one of the ways God has of protecting and watching over us.

"For He shall give His angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways. They shall bear they up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone." (Psalm 91: 11-12)